WONDERFUL EMOTIONAL WORK!!

The Joys of Finding the New Me!

Yesterday I had two major appointments. One was with Julia my therapist. One was with my Alanon sponsor. Both were absolutely profound. I seem to be having a string of profound and altering emotional moments these days and they are so wanted and needed and perfectly timed. God's timing is always perfect that is for sure.

Anyway, my therapy meeting was all about how marriage is a balance of being vulnerable and being confident for me. As a matter of fact, most important close relationships require these two things for true intimacy with another human being. She put two circles on a piece of paper and made sure that the two intersected and it is within that intersection that I need to learn how to live. I look at that paper a million times a day because I truly want to understand it and implement it in my daily life with my loving husband and with my loving family and friends. It is so important for me to have healthy people surround me and people who only love and support me as I love and support them. It is making my body completely different. My husband, Mitch, is completely astonished at how my body is now compared to two weeks ago when I began my work with Julia and with Maureen from Wings of Freedom. I am literally not the same person. My healer, Dr. Wilkens, also changed my medications and I feel completely different and much, much better inside and outside of my body.

My meeting with my Alanon sponsor was profound in a way that only 12 Step Programs can be. She is everything I want to be and I am so grateful she is in my life. I have known her a long time and she knows me very well. I have no fear when I bring my 5th step to her because she is nothing but loving and supportive of me and the struggles I have with my character defects. This time her message to me came right out of her mouth and right into my belly and heart. Since Maureen says there are holes in my heart, my sponsor Lynda was able to see how some of them can be healed, just like Julia could see that. So, now, I have these two wonderfully powerful, intuitive women, helping me see what I could not about myself and now the work begins for me to see if I can heal some of those holes in my heart. My heart has been shattered and broken, so putting it back together is exciting and humbling simultaneously. It makes me feel like I am moving from being broken to being healed and that is extremely powerful for me. Thank you God. God is the most important healer and so bringing all of this to Him is so wonderful for me. It makes me profoundly humbled, honored, and more in love with Him, which means my relationship with God is getting stronger each day. How wonderful is that?

I will keep you all posted on the progress of this work, but I need to process some of this information before I take any action on it. I know what the actions are that I need to move forward on, but I want to settle into them and not react. I want to calmly take direction and move forward. What a concept.

More later....